Is it just me, or is there a new wildness and unpredictability in the air? I've personally felt out of balance quite a bit, and made a huge decision on impulse that had to be undone (and which cost me to rectify). It had to do with home and making a radical choice, but then being overwhelmed by anguish to be uprooted from family, friends, and the familiar. It led to a realization that I am bound with this land where I'm a native, and now that I've made it back, I don't see leaving it in any kind of permanent way. It's about a sense of place, and intimacy with the landscape, as much as with the people and culture.
I know I want to take risks to grow, and not act from fear or wanting to clasp what I've got and not let go. It's about finding what's worth building on, and where deeply embedded patterns are being released to allow for change. I've decided to hold off on major decisions, and come back into balance -- to find the peace and integrate all that's coming up so forcefully. To let go of the sense of urgency, because in my case, the inner energetic change happening now is radical -- and will lead to outer changes. I know sometimes it's the other way around!
Though this is my personal situation, I could see themes of seeking or returning home and coming together with kindred spirits rise fiercely. This comes at a time when it's relationships that'll see us through any challenges of all the change. In my own family, my aunt and uncle recently moved in with one of her children, a trend that's likely happening all over in various forms. Friends form families, too, and many times its been friend circles or one or two friends that have been my safe haven. I also found a lot of solace at meetings of sharing, where hearing the interior emotional lives of real people, made me feel less alone. And more able to share my own inner life.
The Cancer Full Moon reminds us of that need to belong, and to be known intimately. To feel that we deeply matter to others, and they to us. We need each other, no? The Sun and Moon are at 18 degrees, so look there in your chart for what's being illumined. I hope if your cup spilleth over at the Full Moon, the deluge brings many revelations with it!
- Brand New Article: Cancer-Capricorn Full Moon, January 8th/9th, 2012