My precious black tuxedo cat Bellina died yesterday, after spending a week at the vet for intensive care. It took my husband and I by surprise, and we were distraught to let go. When she began to fade, I tried to summon some super reiki, cat whispering, sage-ing and my husband and I tried to revive her with our kisses. She's the one we found a few days old, walking in a ditch on shaky legs with eyes filmy and unfocused. She was bottle fed and every milestone --first time using litter box, first solid food, first time climbing a tree -- was snapped with our little digital camera.
She grew into an elegant and very cool cat. Even full grown though, she ran for me to pick her up, and walk with her around the garden. Very often she sat on a pillow on my desk. I've had lots of cats, but she was a deeply bonded familiar.
What's relevant here is Saturn is moving across my 8th house of death, in its own house of Scorpio. This grief is in the early stage, but because she was a soul mate, her loss is opening old wounds. Even in my sadness, with a literal lump in my throat, I feel grateful because I know this will heal me profoundly. I haven't cried in months, and now, it's a deluge, and coming from the depths -- a gift of release.
We're just four days away from Winter Solstice, with its light-bringing "Finger (or Hand) of God." With Saturn and Pluto, it's coming out of experiences that reach in to the core, so that even we are surprised to be turned inside out. Like for us, it can involve something that's beyond your control -- "No, No No! Anything but that!" And in that moment, instead of shutting down -- which for me was a learned behavior from early trauma -- we open our minds to see it with fresh eyes. This is the miracle of Jupiter Gemini, and the possibility that I've tried to express here with these Solstice Scopes. Look for where transiting Jupiter is moving through, to find your forecast.
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