Shattering and the Light Within

You were made for this. You have prepared for lifetimes. Go within often, even if for a few minutes--for guidance, to get replenished, to strengthen your resolve, to turn over your anxiety, to remember your essence. Ralph F. Jones, grandfather to astrologer Elizabeth Jones of Mount Shasta, CA

The way the markets are going, looks like there's a slow buckling underway. Some of you might know about the time monks of halfpasthuman and urban survival that see a big event on the 7th (tomorrow), triggering what they call release language. I don't claim to know how it works, but it has to do with predictive linguistics via a webbot, into the 'net future. If you're curious, take a look at their site for more information.

The Hopi prophecy has stood out to me, especially for this week, as we seem to be teetering on the edge of chaos. The loss of stability will be shattering to many, reminding me of this line: They will feel they are being torn apart and will suffer greatly. Know the river has its destination. There was a time when I was shattered by a psychological trauma, and lost my ability to speak and know who I was. I stayed shattered for what seemed like forever. Since I couldn't connect with anyone, I turned to spirit, and found comfort there, and experienced the inner light. I'll never forget being all alone at Baker Beach in San Francisco, and feeling invisible arms wrap around me in a loving way. After that, I always knew there were spirit beings looking out for me.

When I did start to re-integrate, those shattered pieces turned me into something brand new. Notably, my handwriting changed dramatically after this. I later learned about the shamanic initiation, and how there's a shattering of the old Self, before the initiate returns to society with what they've learned from the experience. The whole 2012 thing, and the break down of time reminds me of this experience on a collective level. That the shattering opens the door to the pliable future, where the new You emerges ready to receive the new energies, time travel, and communicate telepathically. Maybe the shattering is necessary, to transform, and be able to straddle worlds and shapeshift the way the shamans do. Maybe it'll eventually lead to a more equitable system, and one that doesn't destroy all Life in pursuit of profit.

The essence and your inner doorway to spirit is there no matter what. But when there's all this flying debris, and demands of survival, it's hard to take refuge there or even to sense it at all. Keeping a candle lit might help, and music, which has soothed my own frayed nerves this week. Check out the Sounds that Heal: The Solfeggio Frequencies. And if you fall off the wagon, and have a meltdown, just keep trying to find that inner light. That's what I'll be trying to do!

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