You carry an air of authority and seriousness. Some might call you Saturnian, or think you've got Capricorn rising, since planets in the First House shape the personality. Also consider the sign of your Saturn, since that's a factor in how you're perceived by others.
You seem a wise old soul. You are ambitious, but taken too far, this crowds out lightness of being. You might've been saddled with many responsibilities as a child. Or grew up in a restrictive home, where everything you did was carefully controlled (or it seemed that way).
With Saturn in the First House, there's a call to establish a sense of self that's effective, for who you want to be, and your life purpose. While getting there, you might be overly fearful of how you're perceived. This can lead to inhibition, and holding back who you really are.Developing Presence
Self-expression and finding your own sense of presence is key. You flourish when you bring awareness and effort to your self-image. This includes how you move, your physical appearance, vitality, and confidence. At the heart is backing up your right to simply Be. Are you behaving a certain way out of a need to play it safe? Your journey is finding a structure for your personality that's authentic and self-originated.
Over time, taking smart risks, you come to a sense of self that's evolving, but defined in a Saturn-approved way. It pays off for you to give thought to things like self-promotion, your online identity, and the care you take to be presentable in public. In her book, The Essential Guide to Practical Astrology, April Elliot Kent writes on this natal Saturn, "The mentor: Teaches you to defend yourself and your boundaries, to develop a strong body and a distinctive personal 'brand' and to assert yourself appropriately."
One empowerment tip is to look to your natal Jupiter, the companion to Saturn, for ways to expand your sense of personal expression, and keep your spirits lifted. When you feel pulled together, you're a natural leader, an authority and self-directed person.My Experience of Saturn in First House
Yes, this is my natal Saturn position, in the cardinal fire sign of Aries. I'm more able to reflect, now that I'm at a seasoned age, some ways this played out in my early life.
Since Saturn rules authority and rules, I see how a rigid sense of morality -- in this case Southern Christian (Baptist and Methodist) -- crowded out my natural impulses in those first years. There was a definite sense of how a girl should behave, and as a tomboy, I was not conforming to the modern-version of the Southern Belle at all.
There were times when I tried to meet the societal expectations, and had an extreme desire to do so. But by the time I got to college, I realized I was the equivalent of The Ugly Duckling, not fitting in to a culture that was at odds with my nature. My best friend in college, looking back, described me as shut down. I had created many defensive behaviors that then had to be dismantled, to get to an authentic sense of self.
I recall many painful encounters with "authority" figures, and had a general fear of the power of adults as a child. There was a pattern of doing something rebellious and risky (Aries) and then paying a heavy price for it. I did a lot of reckless, defiant things that were a response to the sense of invalidation I felt. I'm sure I had an angel on my shoulder, because I put myself at physical risk many times.
Over the years, I've become more at ease with the intensity of having Saturn, in its fall, in Aries, right at the front door. But that ease has been hard won, and comes from knowing I'm able to project that strength when I need to, and take the right risks, even if it sometimes provokes others.